Musing and Realizing

Never thought that you would leave me
Alone with only our memories
Standing alone in the waves
I always thought that we had time
To talk and be together, fine
Now I know it’s all a dream
How am I going to brave
All the storms without you in this life
No way I will be fine
Without you
No way I can feel the rhyme
Without you
I circle and circle
Never reach the end
Without you

I remember the day I saw you
The first time I talked with you
I remember our first fight
I remember how we reconciled
I remember how we chose the paths so apart
That talking felt like a luxury
Oh yeah oh no
Without you
I feel the days are the same
But when I want to chat
I remember that you are no longer in my life
That I can’t call you when I feel like
I just remember the moments I spent with you
Without you

I know I will be okay someday
I know I will feel somewhat less pain
But I know I will always miss you in the rain
I know you will be a part of me every day
I wanted to do many things with you
But now I can only imagine and cry the night
I wanted to see you shine
Wearing the white coat, you were an angel in my mind
I can no longer see
You growing old with time
I can only look for you
In my mind
Without you
I feel I’m so lost
Without you
I think the nights are sad
I have to distract myself from our memories
Without you

Nothing has changed and everything has changed
I am not the same
And you are not bere
We all keep missing you
And it’s not long you left us
I’m so scared of time
How will I cope
When you are no longer with me
Will I be fine
Without seeing you
Without thinking of you
I will be so sad
That it feels like
My heart is hurting
Trying to keep you alive
In my words
Is what I can only do
I’ll remember you
In all the things I see
I see your shadow
I keep seeing you smile
But what can I do
When we are separated
By miles and miles
Without you
I’m not complete
You were a part of me
That I can’t forget
Without you
My life has fewer colors
But I still keep looking for your traces
Without you
I don’t know what to do
Without you
I am untethered
Without you

You will always be a part of me
That I will always cherish
You will be my best friend
You have gone to a new world
Leaving us to miss you
I will forever remember you
Without you
I still go on
with my life
and remember you
as I look at the boundless sky

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Hey

I am not feeling well. Just a few days ago, I lost my best friend. She was the kindest person I knew. It feels like a huge hole in my world now. Though I can’t believe this, I know it is true. I try to not think that she is gone, but then suddenly my brain reminds me. It’s a vicious cycle.
It’s just hard dealing with loss. Maybe someday you will not hurt like this but the pan will always be a part of you. It’s not that you stop feeling bad, it’s just that the ache becomes a part of you.
She is always with me in my imagination so I can say he is alive for me. But I cant call her or chat with her now. It’s funny how a moment changes your future from the past.
To my best friend, you will always be missed and remembered.
I have a moment with her. We were kids and the physics class had the chapter Heat being taught. So there was a problem stating that milk was boiled to a high temperature. We were actually fighting then and not speaking to each other. She straight out said, Oh, milk got fever. It got me to smile and that’s how we talked to each other again.
To my readers, cherish your loved ones. Always.
Trying very hard to smile!