Musing and Realizing

You look better in my fantasy

I saw you when I was young
All I wanted to do
Was to be with you
I worked and worked
So I could be worthy
I ran away
So I can run towards you
Now I stand before you
But why do I feel that
You look better in my fantasy
You look better in my fantasy

You were kind in my mind
You were soulful in my heart
Why do you seem so bleak now
Did I miss something when we were apart
Is it me that changed
Or is it you
Maybe it’s not us
But it’s nothing new
I think you were great then
But now, I feel I should go
Because all I feel when I see you
That you look better in my fantasy
You look better in my fantasy

I ask you this
And you smile
You say that I have gone the extra mile
And now I see the flaws I missed
When I fantasized about you
A moment was only clicked
I never knew who you were
I never saw how you were
You became my fantasy
But my fantasy was never you
Maybe that’s why you say
I look better in your fantasy

And now I know that’s why
You look better in my fantasy

I got no more reasons
To keep fantasies about you
I have to think of me
And try to forget you
You were a part of me
That I can always see
But fantasy is not me
And I’m not a fantasy
I now think
You look good in reality
You will always look better in my fantasy
But I will watch you in reality
Maybe someday
I will see you
Look the same in reality and my fantasy

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Hi
So this is for secret crushes. And when your crush is gone. This song has two possible scenarios in my mind.
First, a secret crush for a long time. But when you meet the crush, you realize maybe the crush wasn’t as good as you thought. The crush realizes this and says, what you say was me in a moment of time. Not the total me.
Now you can stop this. You decide to know the crush again. And you become close because your crush in the fantasy and reality became the same one day.
In the second scenario, the crush is gone. You make yourself better and now you are searching for the new meaning of your life.

In any situation, strive to become a better version of yourself.